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We're in Colorado Springs, Colorado

We've driven 25 hours from San Francisco since Tuesday morning. Rather, Nikol has driven. I've been in charge of entertainment.

Today we spent the sunset hours in the Garden of the Gods park, our destinatiion. It was amazing. So beautiful. We're going back tomorrow morning for opposite lighting. And then immediately driving back to SF.

I feel really shitty about blowing off friends in SF before we came here and am too mortified to check in on FB. I had vague plans with them and none sounded terribly interested so I think it's okay, but I'm still beating myself up about it.

One of my very dearest, oldest, dearest friends made it sound like she'd be visiting us in SPb last June and she simply ran silent and I had no hard feelings but I fear most people are not like me.

It's actually a lot deeper than that: my best friend chooses drugs over me always, my second best friend is rarely available to me unless I genuflect to her and mostly I'm not willing, my old friends were not ever really good friends, they just like the idea of me.

Recently, I lost two friends of over twenty years because they did all the "work". Okay. I don't miss them. They made demands and I can't meet them.

I'm a terrible friend, if you want more than infrequent emails, Skypes and phone calls. If you're suffering, I am a constant friend and this is what pains me the most. When I suffered most, my only friend was my drug addict friend. She was there for me, constantly. For the friends who dumped me, I was there every single day, maybe five times a day for them when they suffered, multiple times. But no more.

Traveling on the road with Nikol is sublime to me because we are the perfect travel partners. She says, "You had a huge coffee, you must need to pee." I do and she stops. "Baby, you must be thirsty. You act like a camel when you're driving but do you want water?" I ask and she does and I run in and grab her one. Plus, I love having her to myself. It's so rare. (Our first night in America, one of Nikol's clients called SIX times between midnight and seven a.m. Good gourd!)

I've met some very lovely people in Nevada, Utah and Colorado. The billboards sicken me but the people are nice.

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oddharmonic
Mar. 24th, 2012 03:49 am (UTC)
Driving straight through is a haul - we can make it to LA in 18 hours but usually split it into two 10-ish hour chunks and spend the night in Mesquite or Paradise. Glad you are such lovely complements on road trips!
baronessvarla
Mar. 24th, 2012 04:08 am (UTC)
Our first stop was in Elko, Nevada. Our second was in Glenwood Springs, Colorado. I've met such lovely people here. The crap thing is, because I'm not outwardly lesbian (now--I'm now a dowdy auntie) they talked to me casually about "immoral gay marriage". Why this comes up in casual conversation doesn't surprise me. I've dealt with this my whole life. But why can't nice people just be nice? Keep your bigotry in your pocket and let me imagine you're simply a nice person.

And, yes! Thank you. I am lucky to have the symbiosis with Nikol that I do. We kiss each others' hands (and pay the extra ten bucks for the extra unneeded bed) every time we arrive successfully in another city.
jaipur
Mar. 25th, 2012 03:10 pm (UTC)
Awww, you came through the southwest and you didn't see me?? ::chuckle:: JUST KIDDING. I'm so glad you and Nikol are having a great time!! Drive safe!!
jaipur
Mar. 25th, 2012 03:11 pm (UTC)
P.S. Seriously, Colorado Springs, home of all sorts of far-right Christianity? And you're surprised the bigotry comes up in casual conversation? :(
baronessvarla
Apr. 10th, 2012 02:39 pm (UTC)
No, I wasn't surprised (I grew up in Arizona) but I was disappointed. I hate when I start really getting to like some stranger on the road and then they gut me.

You're in New Mexico, now, right?
jaipur
Apr. 10th, 2012 09:21 pm (UTC)
yeah, it IS disappointing. :P Just when you begin to have hopes for the human race, hey?

but yup, we're in New Mexico!! Bee-yoo-tiful Albuquerque. /sarcasm Next time you are traveling around here and have the energy to meet up with folks, let me know!! :) :)
joyfull
Mar. 25th, 2012 01:50 pm (UTC)
Colorado springs zoo is nice! A good hike to see giraffes!
If you are coming through Illinois please at least have a coffee with me! I'm right off the highway!
baronessvarla
Apr. 10th, 2012 02:42 pm (UTC)
Yes, we went there but there were a ton of Amish/Mennonites there and I was trying to get Nikol to NOT take their photos. She aimed her big fat lens at them and I begged her not to take photos. So she didn't. I thought it was disrespectful. They're not zoo animals.

C, we will be making a trip to Chicago in the near future. Nikol wants to see it and I love Chicago. Near future = probably this year.
joyfull
Apr. 11th, 2012 04:41 pm (UTC)
ooh good.. ill bring Jane!
Ill treat ya to pizza!
typsygypsy
Mar. 26th, 2012 09:52 pm (UTC)
I think we'll be in Colorado springs second weekend of May. Betcha won't be there until then.
baronessvarla
Apr. 10th, 2012 02:43 pm (UTC)
I only wish! I'm trying to implant in my gf's head that I want to see my LJ friends as we travel. We always see her LJ friends. It's an uphill battle.
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